Well, it’s been five months since I even logged in last. Five months and three pounds heavier, and a lot squishier. The summer got crazy. In the midst of an Epic August, I had a week of school. (Although I did workout throughout that week, and it was glorious) But at the end of July, my grandma died. That brought on a wave of emotions – and still does. In September, Hubby got sick, then I got sick – and then the month was over. Oh, and October! A friend asked us to fill in for a janitorial job at a tire shop six nights a week whilst he had triple bypass surgery. I went to the gym 4 times that whole month and ate garbage almost nightly. And this month – well, I’ve beat October’s gym numbers. I’ve been five times so far this month. Yay me! Plans are to go today after my one out-client.
Each workout feels like starting all over again. Last week I did half of my kettle bell workout and was sore for days. Sad little muscles give up so quickly when you don’t keep motivating them. I feel generally lumpy all over since my lazy stint began. Weak and wobbly. But, we have planned a backpacking trip for this spring – more motivation to not be a complete blob by the end of winter. Right now my goal is to drop those three pounds I gained and lose two more – yup, just a little 5 lb loss – but that will be overcoming a huge hurtle! I never dipped down to that when I was working out.
How shall I accomplish this? Goal one: Eat right! Even when I was working out four days a week, I still didn’t have the eating down. That’s my goal for the next three days (starting yesterday). “They” say that the hardest points are day three, week three, and month three. If I can make it past day three this week (Saturday) then I will be proud of myself. After a whole week of eating right, I just might treat myself to something nice and non-edible.
Part of this recent motivation comes from reminders that diabetes has killed of some of my favorite people this year. I get so frustrated when I see people going down that path without any hesitation – “Oh, I’ll just take insulin” they think, and next thing they have lost limbs, kidneys, and eventually life. I can prevent this – even with a lot going against me. Fortunately, I’m not a soda drinker, so that’s not an issue. I’ll have about one soda a month – maybe two. But I digress. There is so much that can be done now, while I’m young-ish, to take care of my health. Also, another motivator this week: I had my first colonoscopy. I’m not symptomatic, but just have a family history of colon cancer and polyps. All clear. They’ll check again in five years. But that’s something else I want to try and keep healthy. Which reminds me – time to go eat breakfast and take some fiber…
…And we’re back. Anywho, since I was thoroughly flushed this week and my stomach shrunk from two days of nothing but liquids, I thought I’d take advantage. So far so good (as of yesterday) I stayed under my calorie goal and wasn’t starving at any point. Lots of protein and veg. That’s my goal. Lots of protein and veggies – also no added sugar. I had an apple and banana yesterday, and those were my sweets. I know that once I get it out of my system I’ll stop craving it. Leave it to me to pick three days before my period to cut out sweets – but there it is. Yesterday I drank 21 cups of water. Phew. I still feel all dried out from this cold dry weather and using the heater. Must take some omega-3s to add some happy fats back.
Well, this feels nice, writing again. It is a huge help to get these thoughts on e-paper and remind myself where I am and what my goals are and that they are not out of reach. It holds me accountable. I will post again next week – and I’m putting that in my calendar now.